just a thought or two!

we spent all night together, laughing at nothing&
talking too much, & the moonlight was so bright in
your eyes, before I knew it I was falling in love

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I miss him.

No I don't miss him.
I miss the fun we used to have.

the time we spent in the dark,

laughing so hard we cried

I miss having someone to hold me

I miss having someone to talk to about the future.

they say love comes to you when your not looking

but I can't not look.

its all I've ever wanted.

Someone to love me.

I want to build a life with one man.

I want to have a family of my own.

I want to have that fairytale ending.

I know that that there will be up and downs

and im not looking for a perfect life...

im looking for a full life

one that will remind me that its not all a dream

the tears. the laughter. a heart so full of love.

my heart is full of love.

but im talking about a different love.

The first boy i loved....

couldnt love me back.

the second boy i loved....

showed me how amazing it was to be loved back.

but it was the strength of my love that scared him

he felt like he was unworthy of such love

yet he only proved himself to be right

i have almost loved.

more than a couple times...

but intuition is a powerful thing

that can be used as both a sheild and a weapon.

and the older i get the more aware i am of it.

i only wish the bricks that i use to gaurd my heart didnt harden

everytime i let someone in only for them to let me down.

the next man i love...
will be just that a man 

someone worthy of my love

and one who wont run when things get rough

a man who will want to take a disagreement as an oppertunity

to find one more reason to love me...

because I am me.

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i want to be your
favorite hello & hardest goodbye ♥