I havent talked to him in 2 days

I'm so sick & tired of acting like i'm fine, cus truthfully, i'm not.
I can't even talk to you without being so incredibly sad. You were the one
person who was always supposed to be there for me, one of my best friends,
my everything.. & you ruined it all in that moment & i acted like it
didn't hurt, & for a while, i didn't think it did..but the tears are here &
i now realize that it hurt more than anything

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Today is day two.
Yesterday was easy. But I was sick. I slept all day.

Today on the other hand i feel weak.

Why? I have no reason to feel this way.

Although I cant say I wouldn't give him yet another chance!

And Why the hell would I give him another chance?

to my head it makes no sense but to my heart its a totally different story.

I turn the lights out and I am reminded of the empty space beside me.

I wake up wanting to talk about the dreams i had.

I go to sleep still wanting the same arms that broke my heart.
How does this make sense?

My head vs My heart

Its been years since i had such a broken heart.

Its been even longer that i have opened my heart like that.

You Love and you Learn

When do you get to Live in Love?

...I know I know its all in time...

But that doesn't stop the hurt.

 that doesn't heal my heart any quicker.

Humiliation.

Its a funny thing.

You take a leap of faith on someone you love.

You give them opportunity after opportunity

and what do you get?

Humiliation.

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&& she finally told him how she felt. she
downright spilled her heart out. .. & she
prayed to herself that he would care, but
he just walked away as she silently stood
there..